remember when the only purpose of our days was to live them together, remember when we laughed and cried and loved in our best moments

i remember you and your warmth and the kindness of your spirit, giving me the courage to be someone i never thought i could; i was centre-stage, i was the prima ballerina, and it was all thanks to you and the particular shade of your smile, the colour of your eyes, fluttering like the wind

i remember the grey days and rainy nights that weren't ever that bad because we were together and we had each other through all of it, and i can honestly say i was never homesick because i had you and i made my home in your heart

your heart is a beautiful place
A Great Summary of My Life:

I am the most awkward human being to ever awkward and I don't know what I want but I'm trying to awkward and it's just not working because I'm too awkward to awkward and I JUST HAVE TOO MANY FEELS. And too much awkward.
(God, it's a good thing typing an LJ post looks cooler than writing in a diary.)

What Would [name redacted] Do?

Theoretically, the worst he can do is say "no"...
And if he says that, it's not like I'll ever see him again...
So, theoretically, no harm, no foul...
Too bad I can't convince myself of this.
I just got back from a weekend spent in Spain and Andorra! :D (in media res, much?)

I like romancin' but I don't wanna )


***

It was nice, though, (nice isn't ever going to be a strong enough word, but it will have to do) to come back to an inbox full of facebook messages saying happy birthday. ♥ I am so blessed for my family and friends; I can't put it into words.

Happy 560th Birthday, Leonardo da Vinci.


Gotta love those Sunday night jam sessions~

Today, Albertine tried its hands at volleyball in the ACLO! It was a really fun game, despite the fact that none of use really knew how to play (though Mikko and Julie were actually pretty pro, and Esra definitely gave the ball what-for). After an hour of that, we biked back home and dug out Jamie's (nigh) deflated basketball to shoot hoops in the Noorderplantsoen. More epic funtimes! :D We also climbed on the play structures (i'm the king of the castle and you're the dirty rascal~) and climbed up some trees, earning some rather nasty stink eyes from parents, and wholehearted hero-worship from their children.

This evening, Nescip and the Turkish girls treated Orange Kitchen to a sing-a-long of sorts. Basically, Nescip brought out his ute (NB: IDEK exactly what it is; it's pronounced like U-T-E, but IDK if the spelling is anything close to correct, and I have no idea about the English name for that thing - to me, it might as well be a guitar) and serenaded us with some awesome Turkish music. Apparently, 99% of Turkish music is about love and tragic romance. Which is legit.
;ALKDSFJ;ASLDKFA; I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL RN A;LSDKFJA;LSKDFJ

ON THE ONE HAND, I AM REALLY HAPPY BECAUSE I JUST ATE SUSHI FROM THE BLUE KITCHEN AND IT WAS LOVELY AND THE PEOPLE WERE AWESOME, AND I'M GETTING TO KNOW* THE NEW PEOPLE HERE, AND THEY SEEM REALLY NICE AND I THINK WE'LL HAVE A GREAT TIME TOGETHER

BUT

BUT

BUT

OTOH, TAMAS, JOANNA, AGNIESZKA, MILENA AND PAVOL ALL LEFT TODAY; ONLY FRANCOIS AND MICKEY ARE LEFT IN ALBERTINE NOW AND I AM SO SAD, AND I MISS EVERYONE WHO LEFT AND JUST WHY CAN'T THEY ALL COME BACK AND WE CAN ALL LIVE TOGETHER FOREVER SOB SOB SOB


emotional deluge under the cut )
"But it's ok, it's normal."

Francois' secret catch phrases #32.
In Finnish: Hyvää Joulua! 

We just got back from Hanna's grandparents' place, where, in true grandparent style, we were plied with all sorts of delicious Finnish Christmas food (I took pictures of every dish - all will be up on DUTCH MY LIFE once I have access to my laptop again). We had rice porridge (delicous!) and fruit stew, pulla (little balls of sweetbread), jouluutorttu (flaky pastries filled with plum jam), taatelikakku (date cake) and rahkapulla (cream-filled sweetbread with lemon and raisins). I also learned how to say "thank you" - kiitos

Hanna's family was there: her siblings came with their children (adroable!). Her whole family is apparetly coming over to her house tonight, so I will get to meet even more Finnish people (and fail to communicate, due to the language barrier - but I have developed he general strategy of thanking everyone copiously and smiling all the time - seems to have worked so far...)

Can't really believe it's actually Christmas, though! I donät know where the time went! But last night, we decorated the Christmas tree, and today, we laid out the presents under it (literally a mountian of them - feels just like home!). I hope Hanna and her family like the gifts I brought- I'm thankful that the Gluhwein survived the trip here. 

Suffice to say, life is quite exciting at the moment, and I feel so lucky and blessed to be able to celebrate Christmas with Hanna and her family - not that I don't miss mine, but seriously, this is something special! :D 

HYVÄÄ JOULUA TO EVERYONE :D 
Yeah,  no big deal, just spending Christmas in another country :D Blogging for the next week or so will all take place on LJ, since my laptop is in Groningen, and I am in a place called Lohja. (I have no idea where it is; I need to google it.)

Got in last night, and was picked up from the airport by Hanna and her mum, who seems like a lovely lady (actually, all of Hanna's family seem exceedlngly nice and friendly, so I'm really happy to be here.)

Random: THERE IS A SAUNA IN HANNA'S HOUSE, WTF. AMAZE. I hope we'll get to use it later.

This afternoon, we're apparently going to visit Hanna's grandparents, as well as the Lohja town centre. I will probably be plied with all sorts of Finnish food - EXCITE! 

I wish I could be coherent enough to write a proper holiday post, but I just have ALL THE FEELINGS, as usual. :D Our ride is here now, so I've got to go EXPLORE FINLAND. 
WHY IS IT 2:30 A;LSKDJFAL;SK.

ESSAYS SHOULD JUST DIE IN A FIRE RIGHT NOW. ALL AT ONCE. I just need to get this rough draft out. I just need to get this rough draft out.

(Because how else can I indulge guilt-free in the Sinterklaas party on Tuesday and - hopefully - the ESN Christmas party on Wednesday? ;p)

To Do Later Today:
- wrap Jamie's Sinterklaas present
- write the accompanying Sinterklaas poem

Nürnberg

Dec. 4th, 2011 08:48 pm
I HAVE BEEN TO GERMANY!

Well, technically it's been a week since I was in Germany (and if you want to get reaaaally nitpicky about it, I've been in Germany once before, to visit Tante Freidl - but I was in grade four then, so that doesn't count for these purposes), but I'm just getting to the post now, because a) there's a lot to process and b) NO TIME OMG.

Let's start the journey!
Nuremberg, part 1 )
PART 2

*He's also famous for writing the Mare Liberum, among other things, which formed the basis for international law. But he's most famous for the escape he orchestrated, involving his wife, a book chest, and a serving girl.
#Thatawkwardmoment )

I also don't understand sentence structure or tmi. But that's the hangover talking. I need to go do work now, and then go to Zumba this evening... AND THEN BED OMG.
WHY DO I FEEL LIKE CRYING?

In non-emo news, one exam down, two to go! (And a whole bunch of papers and essays, wooohoooo :/ But whatevs.) Right now, I am sitting in the Yellow Kitchen while one of my housemates, Lourdes, bakes a cake. It smells AMAZING, omfg. I'm also waiting for my laundry to be done; apparently in Europe, it is just fine that one load of laundry can take up to SIX HOURS. I put it in at seven, and by my calculations, it should be ready to hang at 1 am. WTF, Netherlands?! This is poopy, since I really want to go swimming tomorrow morning and I can't do that if my swimsuit is in the wash.  Arrgh. #firstworldproblems, I know.

Anyway, focusing on better things, I have been officially invited to Finland over Christmas! I AM SO EXCITED ;ASKLDF;AKSLFD;AJF;AS;DFL~ It would be so cool to spend Christmas in Finland; I get sooo giddy whenever I think about it, and I can't wait to book tickets (my fingers are tied in knots, hoping everything works out!)

In the meantime, though, my exams won't write themselves; I have a study group on Sunday that I need to prepare for, especially since Saturday will be taken up by the Plantsoenloop, an 8km run through the local park. Tot ziens, LJ!
I still can't believe this place. I still don't understand how this - any of this - is real. I'm still grappling with the fact that with one plane trip - literally, from August 28th to August 29th - life can change so drastically. Groningen is amazing. The people I live with are amazing. Everything is amazing and I am constantly in awe (and I know, I know, give it a few weeks and see what I'm saying then, but right now I'm living in this crazy happy bubble and everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.)

In the two weeks since I've been in Groningen, I've met people from all over the world. I'm making plans to visit places I've only ever known as names on a map - if that. One of my friends, Hanna, is from Finland, and has graciously mentioned invites to her home near Christmas time. Apparently they can hunt moose there by the light of the Northern lights! There are jokes going around about Oktoberfest in Munich, which I am so, so down for. It's crazy.

And that's probably the most extravagant experience for me: I am surrounded by people - and it's awesome. Over the last two weeks, I've been talking to people, connecting with them, initiating and carrying on conversations - and it's been fun! I never knew just being with people could be this enjoyable; is this what normal people feel like all the time? Even though school is already in full swing (I read three chapters of my Industrial-Organizational Psychology textbook this weekend and I have an oral presentation due on Thursday), I'm able to sit with people and just chill, relax, without stressing about projects or deadlines. I'm actively seeking social contact, which is so novel for me that I'm having a hard time believing it myself. This is so different from anything I'm used to; I smile at people in the mornings, say hi to them, even just sit quietly as they talk around me, all of us just doing our own thing - it feels like acceptance, community, and it's such a completely addictive feeling. How have I never experienced this before? It's so liberating, and I never imagined it could be like this.

P.S.: DUTCH MY LIFE
I AM IN HOLLAND.

WHAT THE CRAP.

Many, many photo posts up at Dutch My Life, though I feel like I could never actually textually capture the whirlwind of the last three days. Right now, I'm chilling in the Orange Kitchen with my roomie (Cindy, from China) and our neighbour Jamie (Master's student from England) and Hanna, another Master's student from Finland. I'm sleep deprived and haven't exercised properly since I left, but oh mannnnn, this is just going to be so much fun, I can't even. Last night, I went out with Jamie, Hanna, Sara (psychology student from NYC, also probably a Fan~), Francois (from Belgium), and a couple other people whose names I don't remember exactly atm, but who are all awesome!  Had my first Dutch beer - but was dumb enough not to take a picture of it, so I don't know what it was called.

Today was the first day of the Welcoming  Ceremonies. We got so much paper and free food - and free beer! (I can't get over how cheap the stuff is here... good thing I don't like it :/). IDK, it's just been so busy, and ESN week is on Friday, and classes start on Monday - I don't even know how I'm going to handle this, but oh my god, I am jjust so excited and whelmed to be over here, I have no words.

THIS EXCHANGE IS GOING TO BE SO INTENSE. :D
Sorry for the long absence. I AM NOW IN EUROPE. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. HOW IS THIS REAL LIFE, I DO NOT EVEN.

Like, literally, I am on the intercity train towards Groningen from the Amsterdam Schiphol airport. No one is more shocked by these circumstances than I, let me tell you. I'm going to be blogging specifically about my exchange for posterity - it's called Dutch My Life, and you can bet I made really douchey self-satisfied smirks when I thought that up.

It's going to be basically like my LJ, but with way more pictures and way less ~emotions. So not actually like my LJ at all. You know you want to follow it. Come on, it'll be fun. :D

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