Contradictio in Terminis

What's that, you say? The first weekend back on campus, you say? Too many self-destructive feelings right now, you say?

I have razorblades in my room? Okay.

...

I definitely did not mean to do that. OOPS.
(But after all this, what's one more scar?)

I just needed to put this somewhere other than my head for a while. There will be posts not dedicated to wangst! Just... not quite yet.

( I'm getting a headstart on the mental health/body image issues this year... #overachiever :-/ )

(and two weeks, two weeks until I go back to Kingston for Don Training and then it will be September and I will be insured and I will finally be able to talk about this to someone who at least gets paid to put up with my shit)

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL BRB FAILING AT LIFE FOREVER~ FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF WORST INTERVIEW OF LIIIIIFFFFEEEEEEEEEEE OMG WHY AM I ALLOWED TO GO ON EXISTING, I DONUT GET IT.

*headdesk forever*

HGNH.
( Cut for boring IRL bits )

AWESOME MISCELLANY (if by miscellany, you mean fanfic, and I do*): LET US SHARE ALL THE THINGS!
1. copperbadge  has written THIS aka Bankrobber aka the most epic White Collar story EVER. Peter/Elizabeth, R, VERY, VERY AWESOME, you should all check it out.
2. ALSO THIS VID. HOMG JANUARY PLEASE GET HERE ALREADY SO THAT I MAY CAPSLOCK AND FLAIL AND DIE OVER WHITE COLLAR SOME MORE, K?
3. FOR BBC!SHERLOCK PEEPS: blind_author  is THE SHIT and has started Semper Fidelis, which BLOWS MY MIND. Well, there's only one part so far, but ;LKjdf;lasdjf;laksdf;la GO NOW AND READ IT. GO. IT IS AMAZING. I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE MADE ACTUAL KEENING NOISES AT THE SCREEN AS I READ.

*SHOEBOX, AS ALWAYS. Because there will never be a time when SBP does not OWN ALL THE THINGS.

EDIT OH MY GOD IN A HATBOX: CILLIAN MURPHY AND TOM HARDY DISCUSS DOING DRAG. "LET'S HAVE A DRAG-OFF!" ADSF;ALSDFKJAS;LDKJTALSJTA;LSDJFPASDFJ;ALSDJFALSDFJAJSDIOJ OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD THESE MENNNNNN WHAT EVENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDD BRB DYING OF JOY~

THE UNICEF MEETING IS HALF AN HOUR. HALF A FUCKING HOUR. IT WILL NOT TAKE UP ALL OF YOUR TIME; IT IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. SO GO PUT ON YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES AND DEAL WITH IT ALREADY, GDI.

Anyway, you'll be done the French essay by tomorrow. That's what four in the morning is for.

Our rugby Quarter-finals took place today at Sunnybrook Park.

 

We played Birchmount.

 

We played phenomenally.

 

We fucking lost.

 

 

( Cut for angst. It comes in buckets. )

 

I AM OF THE OPINION THAT I NEED SOMETHING PORTABLE, DURABLE, AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, HEAVY THAT I CAN CARRY WITH ME AT ALL TIMES AND USE TO BEAT MYSELF OVER THE HEAD WITH WHENEVER I HAVE INAPPROPRIATE THOUGHTS.

WHICH IS ALWAYS. >.<

WHY SO FAIL?


In terms of other topics, I've had an OUAC tab open for the past half hour and have yet to actually do anything with it. Which programs? Which universities? What do I want to do with my life? *brainsplodey*