Damn LJ deleting my entries minutes before I post. Although the one I had intended last night was a long, rambling speil of angst - this one is just a summary of that.
Reasons for the Angst:
- I AM ALONE. IN MOTHERFUCKING KINGSTON.
- re: above. I have no support network here and everyone else on my floor is going to be uber hungover today, cause they were all at the pub last night becoming acquainted with whateverthefuck a Purple Jesus is, etc etc etc.
- The people here seem, for the most part, exactly like I expected. They are rich and blond and preppy, and it's like they were born to network. I don't get it. Did I miss the "social skills" gene when it was being handed out? Fuck. Also, my bathroom buddy still isn't here, which I'm kinda bummed about, since - well, I'm not really that bummed about it now, if she turns out to be like all the other people here. Surely there is someone else here as socially awkward as I am with whom I can be friends.
- also, I got here, quite honestly, yesterday, but I've already got a laundry list of things I need to buy. What the fuck. Because clearly, I'm not paying enough already.
- I feel like I'm costing my family a huge amount of money, and for what? This is miserable. I am absolutely exhausted, stupidly homesick, and unbelievably disinclined to hang out with other people, and this is just not fun.
TL;DR: ANGST EVERYONE ELSE IS PARTYING AND I HAVE NO FRIENDS D':
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