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There are no words yet invented in the English language, nor in any other that I know that can accurately describe how COMPLETELY FUCKING TERRIBLE I feel about myself and my unending cowardice right now.

It's been the only thing on my mind ever since I woke up today. I am a continuous raw, writhing mass of emotions. Why wasn't I brave enough? He was holding my hand! Why didn't I turn around?!

I really fucking hate myself.

Current Mood: FAILING AT EVERYTHING
Current Location: HELL. AND I'M SITTING RIGHT NEXT TO HIM A;SLDFKJALS;KDFJ FML
Current Music: MY ANGSTTTTT