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bitchy_merlinIt's August 2 today, and I suppose I should've gone to gym. After all, I know the time and place, and I could figure out how to get there. But instead, I made up some half-assed untruth to my parents about how A hasn't replied yet, so -- shit, they're here! Anyway, I semi-lied to get out of gym, and now I am definitely guilty/in denial/peeved about it all, which, I guess for me is understandable, since that's how I feel whenever I've done something wrong.
Not the point.
Not the point.
Or, more accurately, exactly the point. Fuck. A might be on vacation. I don't want to go to gym if she's not going to be there. I don't really want to go to gym at all, after my month-long hiatus, for a multitude of reasons, the first of which is that I feel fat and inadequate. I don't know if I'll still fit into my gymsuit and I'm kind of afraid to try, in case I don't. Ignorance is bliss, yeah?
So this is how the situation stands right now: I, Booksnchocolate, am doing my damndest to avoid TGI like the plague because I am self-conscious and feel like a slob. Also, because without A, I actually don't know any of my teammates. I don't even know who my coach is, although I suspect it's Jonah. I don't want to go in case it turns out to be Tony. I wish I lived in Harry Potter (speaking of which, expect rant shortly) so that I could just Obliviate! myself and everyone around me so that it could be like I'll be in the Other group with Them, and no one would be any the wiser. I've always disliked summer training.
Ugggggggg, I should never be away from gym for extended periods of time: I turn into such a strange person. In a bad way.
I also need to find a job. Soon. I think I'd like to work at Chapters, but that's just a thought.
So this is how the situation stands right now: I, Booksnchocolate, am doing my damndest to avoid TGI like the plague because I am self-conscious and feel like a slob. Also, because without A, I actually don't know any of my teammates. I don't even know who my coach is, although I suspect it's Jonah. I don't want to go in case it turns out to be Tony. I wish I lived in Harry Potter (speaking of which, expect rant shortly) so that I could just Obliviate! myself and everyone around me so that it could be like I'll be in the Other group with Them, and no one would be any the wiser. I've always disliked summer training.
Ugggggggg, I should never be away from gym for extended periods of time: I turn into such a strange person. In a bad way.
I also need to find a job. Soon. I think I'd like to work at Chapters, but that's just a thought.
