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Jun. 26th, 2006 10:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
bitchy_merlinRANDOM THOUGHTS FIRST:
gym was crazy as HELL. I can't wait for Wednesday. I'm so excited! And I dunno which swimsuit to wear: the one piece that my friends know, or the bikini? HELP
OK, NOW:
I had a dream last night. It was 2:00 in the morning, and I couldn't sleep. Then, I must have finally fallen asleep, cause I started dreaming about Stephanie. And me. Sleeping. In the SAME BED. And she didn't mind. It was...strange--nice. I really really liked it, and I don't even know why I dreamt it. Was it because I miss her? Do I have feelings for her? Does she have feelings for me? Do I want her to have feelings for me? Well, actually, that last question is fairly obvious. Yes, I do want her to have feelings for me. Does she? No. Or maybe it was just a random dream? I have no idea.
NOTES:
It's not fair. Mattea has guys falling over her every move, and she doesn't even like them. She doesn't want them! Then, there's me. I wish guys would treat me like that. I wish they would want to kiss me, like they want to kiss her. i wouldn't run screaming. But I think Life is pissed at me, cause my social one pretty much sucks ass.
SO:
Maybe I am bisexual. I want girls and guys to like me. This is confusing.
gym was crazy as HELL. I can't wait for Wednesday. I'm so excited! And I dunno which swimsuit to wear: the one piece that my friends know, or the bikini? HELP
OK, NOW:
I had a dream last night. It was 2:00 in the morning, and I couldn't sleep. Then, I must have finally fallen asleep, cause I started dreaming about Stephanie. And me. Sleeping. In the SAME BED. And she didn't mind. It was...strange--nice. I really really liked it, and I don't even know why I dreamt it. Was it because I miss her? Do I have feelings for her? Does she have feelings for me? Do I want her to have feelings for me? Well, actually, that last question is fairly obvious. Yes, I do want her to have feelings for me. Does she? No. Or maybe it was just a random dream? I have no idea.
NOTES:
It's not fair. Mattea has guys falling over her every move, and she doesn't even like them. She doesn't want them! Then, there's me. I wish guys would treat me like that. I wish they would want to kiss me, like they want to kiss her. i wouldn't run screaming. But I think Life is pissed at me, cause my social one pretty much sucks ass.
SO:
Maybe I am bisexual. I want girls and guys to like me. This is confusing.
