oh travel be kind

God help me when was the last time I felt this conflicted?

Break up?

Say nothing?

My Toronto happiness feels so far away now that I'm here. But the Kingston unhappiness feels far away as well. I don't know what to do.

The work to become comfortable with another person. The effort and the anxiety. Motivation killer.

And, holding her, being in her arms - I can believe this is what happiness with another person is. Like Chloe said about Simon: a warm cup of tea.

But sweet baby Jesus. My misery feels far away but for how long? I leave Wednesday. I can't go back to that.

I just don't know what to do. Honesty? Best policy? Only time will tell. Gods willing tomorrow I'll know.

Wish me luck.