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bitchy_merlin) wrote2015-08-30 05:27 pm
bitchy_merlin) wrote2015-08-30 05:27 pm
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oh travel be kind
God help me when was the last time I felt this conflicted?
Break up?
Say nothing?
My Toronto happiness feels so far away now that I'm here. But the Kingston unhappiness feels far away as well. I don't know what to do.
The work to become comfortable with another person. The effort and the anxiety. Motivation killer.
And, holding her, being in her arms - I can believe this is what happiness with another person is. Like Chloe said about Simon: a warm cup of tea.
But sweet baby Jesus. My misery feels far away but for how long? I leave Wednesday. I can't go back to that.
I just don't know what to do. Honesty? Best policy? Only time will tell. Gods willing tomorrow I'll know.
Wish me luck.
Break up?
Say nothing?
My Toronto happiness feels so far away now that I'm here. But the Kingston unhappiness feels far away as well. I don't know what to do.
The work to become comfortable with another person. The effort and the anxiety. Motivation killer.
And, holding her, being in her arms - I can believe this is what happiness with another person is. Like Chloe said about Simon: a warm cup of tea.
But sweet baby Jesus. My misery feels far away but for how long? I leave Wednesday. I can't go back to that.
I just don't know what to do. Honesty? Best policy? Only time will tell. Gods willing tomorrow I'll know.
Wish me luck.