I'm here. I swear.

[bitchy_merlin]

Mainlining music like it's a drug.

Shout it from the rooftops
Write it on the skyline
All we had is gone, now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open

Tell them
all I hoped would be
impossible

- Impossible, Shontelle (James Arthur cover)
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Things I need to remember:
- first semester as a Don
  - Ben's postcard
  - getting hugged by Marc before I left Harkness for the holidays
  - my sassy, fabulous kitchenmates
- being nice to Sam
  - helping him resort his reprinted experimental materials
  - (and not asking for help when I had to redo mine)
  - covering his January shifts
- Raya hugged me before the holidays
- people are not the enemy

I was human once!

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Things just pain I can't do this any of it fat FAT fat failure pain
hurt



I am ruining my life.