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bitchy_merlin) wrote2011-01-17 09:55 pm
bitchy_merlin) wrote2011-01-17 09:55 pm
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I'm so stupidsometimes that I don't even deserve to live. God. The applications for bursaries for students going on exchange were due on the fifteenth of January. Guess who didn't even think to look up financial aid for exchange students until now? I'm such an unbelievable fucking IDIOT.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! I know exchange is expensive. I know I'm already not pulling my weight enough as it is. I can't fucking believe I was stupid enough not to check until now. How the fuck am I even alive, surely blockheads like me should just be culled at birth and save everyone else the trouble.
Fuck.
Now even if I do get nominated, it would probably be better if I didn't go. I can't bear the thought of asking my parents to pay so much moeny when if it weren't for my inattentiveness and idiocy, they wouldnt't have to. I'm just so stupid, fuck. I really, really hate myself right now.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! I know exchange is expensive. I know I'm already not pulling my weight enough as it is. I can't fucking believe I was stupid enough not to check until now. How the fuck am I even alive, surely blockheads like me should just be culled at birth and save everyone else the trouble.
Fuck.
Now even if I do get nominated, it would probably be better if I didn't go. I can't bear the thought of asking my parents to pay so much moeny when if it weren't for my inattentiveness and idiocy, they wouldnt't have to. I'm just so stupid, fuck. I really, really hate myself right now.