;ALKDSFJ;ASLDKFA; I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO FEEL RN A;LSDKFJA;LSKDFJ

ON THE ONE HAND, I AM REALLY HAPPY BECAUSE I JUST ATE SUSHI FROM THE BLUE KITCHEN AND IT WAS LOVELY AND THE PEOPLE WERE AWESOME, AND I'M GETTING TO KNOW* THE NEW PEOPLE HERE, AND THEY SEEM REALLY NICE AND I THINK WE'LL HAVE A GREAT TIME TOGETHER

BUT

BUT

BUT

OTOH, TAMAS, JOANNA, AGNIESZKA, MILENA AND PAVOL ALL LEFT TODAY; ONLY FRANCOIS AND MICKEY ARE LEFT IN ALBERTINE NOW AND I AM SO SAD, AND I MISS EVERYONE WHO LEFT AND JUST WHY CAN'T THEY ALL COME BACK AND WE CAN ALL LIVE TOGETHER FOREVER SOB SOB SOB


emotional deluge under the cut )
OH MY GOD I JUST CANNOT BELIEVE LIFE SOMETIMES.

ARRGH.

I just got called up by an acquaintance who wasted half an hour of my time asking for advice on how not to enter into a relationship with some girl because he wants to "keep [his] options open". And I get that that's seen as a legitimate concern in university by some. But get this. He and I don't speak often at all, and his motive for calling me of all people? "Because you're a girl." Oh, sorry. I must have missed the part where MY VAGINA MAGICALLY DICTATES WHAT I KNOW.

Fuck.

But really, the worst part isn't that. The worst part is me, because I didn't correct him when he said that. The worst part is me because I let him keep talking at me, even though I had nothing of value to say; even though I was frankly insulted as to why he called.

So now I'm angry at him because of his assumptions that "oh, you're a girl, you know how to do this"; and I'm completely ashamed of myself for not standing up to his implications and doing something about it, and just grrrrrrrr at life right now.
DAMMIT.

DAMMIT.

I know crying is stupid but oh my God, Canada, why?
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAA WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWW

I spent over twelve hours in the library today, and studied for psyc the entire time. Now I'm at that beautiful part of the night you get to when you realize you don't actually know anything. My exam is taking place at 2:00pm tomorrow, which gives me just over 12 hours, if I pull an all-nighter. But I know that would just fuck me over completely (and I just don't have that stamina, though the panic flooding my system atm is giving that claim a run for its money), so it looks like that's off the table.

Right. Um. Not panicking. NOT PANICKING OH GOD OK. So. What I'm going to do is this: finish this entry, do the online quizzes for all of the chapters, god to bed, sleep, wake up, go over my study notes again with pens and highlighters, dash off to a doctor's appt., go to tutorial, get back, do the text review questions for chapters 1-5 AND THEN GO WRITE FAIL THE EXAM LIKE A BOSS.

I seriously cannot remember being this freaked out over anything involving academia, and I can't say I relish the experience. But, ok, basically I am paying obscene amounts of money to fail this thing. The fuck. And, if I don't get at least an eighty on this, then I don't get to take second year psyc courses, which essentially means that if I don't ace this exam, I just wasted more money than I care to think about, for first year here. That just about kills me.

BUT OK, BEING PROACTIVE (like proactive interference, wherein old memories interfere with remembering new information). STUDYING.
Last night went wrong in just about every possible way.

she takes a whiskey drink, she takes a vodka drink, she makes a royal idiot of herself. Mentions of vomit and alcohol and idiocy, please don't click if you find any of that disturbing )

TL;DR: OH MY GOD, I CANNOT HOLD MY LIQUOR AND THAT'S SO EMBARRASSING
JUST FINISHED SPN S5E2 "GOOD GOD Y'ALL"
SPOILERS except you've all probably seen it already... )

PS: tomorrow, I officially graduate high school...? FASCINATING.

Oh, fuck.

It's Friday night. At Queen's. In Leggett.

I am so dead. All I want to do is go to sleep, but that's kind of hard when there is a party going on in the room right beside me.

Arrrgh, how did I not foresee this? Of course people are going to be stupid. Of course they're going to be loud and rowdy and teenagers in general. Queen's is a part school.

If I don't post after this, it's because I've thrown myself out of my (admittedly nice) window, trying to get some peace and quiet.

THINGS THAT ARE SIGNIFICANTLY LESS AWESOME THAN THEY SOUND:

1.ACCIDENTALLY FLASHING A WHOLE BUNCH OF STRANGERS ON THE SUBWAY
OH MY FUCKING GOD. YOU GUYS. THAT SHOW. IT'S KILLING ME. OKAY.

In the interest of not breaking my capslock key (and also mostly because I watched the episodes last night with [livejournal.com profile] moonangelchan , so I've a) already flailed physically about them and b) had some time to cool off), I have a List.

CUT FOR TORCHWOOD SPOILERS: CHILDREN OF EARTH )



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