I just got back from a weekend spent in Spain and Andorra! :D (in media res, much?)

I like romancin' but I don't wanna )


***

It was nice, though, (nice isn't ever going to be a strong enough word, but it will have to do) to come back to an inbox full of facebook messages saying happy birthday. ♥ I am so blessed for my family and friends; I can't put it into words.

Happy 560th Birthday, Leonardo da Vinci.
I still can't believe this place. I still don't understand how this - any of this - is real. I'm still grappling with the fact that with one plane trip - literally, from August 28th to August 29th - life can change so drastically. Groningen is amazing. The people I live with are amazing. Everything is amazing and I am constantly in awe (and I know, I know, give it a few weeks and see what I'm saying then, but right now I'm living in this crazy happy bubble and everything is beautiful and nothing hurts.)

In the two weeks since I've been in Groningen, I've met people from all over the world. I'm making plans to visit places I've only ever known as names on a map - if that. One of my friends, Hanna, is from Finland, and has graciously mentioned invites to her home near Christmas time. Apparently they can hunt moose there by the light of the Northern lights! There are jokes going around about Oktoberfest in Munich, which I am so, so down for. It's crazy.

And that's probably the most extravagant experience for me: I am surrounded by people - and it's awesome. Over the last two weeks, I've been talking to people, connecting with them, initiating and carrying on conversations - and it's been fun! I never knew just being with people could be this enjoyable; is this what normal people feel like all the time? Even though school is already in full swing (I read three chapters of my Industrial-Organizational Psychology textbook this weekend and I have an oral presentation due on Thursday), I'm able to sit with people and just chill, relax, without stressing about projects or deadlines. I'm actively seeking social contact, which is so novel for me that I'm having a hard time believing it myself. This is so different from anything I'm used to; I smile at people in the mornings, say hi to them, even just sit quietly as they talk around me, all of us just doing our own thing - it feels like acceptance, community, and it's such a completely addictive feeling. How have I never experienced this before? It's so liberating, and I never imagined it could be like this.

P.S.: DUTCH MY LIFE
;alskdfj;ewrnt;SSHHG;HLKAHSGEAKHGANQ;EKHA;HA;KLDN

QDC JUST DANCE 2011 = MY LIFE ♥

I can't believe dance is over! There is a gigantic gaping void in my life now, where dance class used to be, and I can't believe that it's all gone by so fast.

Recital was a huge success! :D I haven't gotten much audience feedback (parents don't count; I think they were more preoccupied with my haircut), but on Saturday, the crowds were amazing, and being on stage felt amazing, and the other dancers were amazing, and it was all ~so beautiful~ ;asldkfjals;d I AM WHELMED BY THE AWESOME!

alors on danse~ )
I wish we could all just dance forever. ♥________♥

*I keep wanting to make self-deprecating jokes about people seeing me in my underwear, and then I remember that for Videodance, my costume was underwear, so it's a bit late to be worrying about modesty, I guess.
A;SLDKFJA;SLD;LAS GUYS GUYS GUYS YOU GUYS HOLY FUCK THE DANCE RECITAL IS GOING TO BE FUCKING AMAZING I AM SO WHELMED RN I CAN'T EVEN ;ASLKDFJA;LSDKJFA;LSDJ;LAST ALL OUR COSTUMES LOOK *SICK* AND PEOPLE LOOOOOOOVE MY GAGA OUTFIT ;ASKDFJSA;L;AD I AM JUST LIKE ALL THE HAPPY RIGHT NOW. WHO CARES IF I ONLY HAVE TWO MINUTES TO CHANGE BETWEEN MY CONSECUTIVE NUMBERS, THIS SHOW IS GOING TO ROCK THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!
THIS IS SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN ANYTHING I COULD BE WORKING ON RIGHT NOW: OMGOMGOMG DISCWORLD CONVENTION, ALSDKFAL;OMGGGG NEW BOOK COMING (EVENTUALLY),

;ALSKDJF;ASKLTJ;LSDTN;A GOOD OMENS ON TV

OMG OMG OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG SO MUCH DOPAMINERGIC ACTION IN MY BRAIN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH SHAKING AND CRYING AND FAPPING AND DYING HARDCORE RN ;ALSKDJF;ASLDJ;ASDJG; FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF DO WANT


~*~FANSPLOSION IN MY PANTS~*~
*dusts hands off*

Today snuck up on me! There I was, sitting in my chair and checking my email, and BAM! suddenly it's the new year. Happy New Year, everyone! Here's hoping to movements of the "onwards and upwards" variety for 2011. :-)

Original plans for New Year's were of the "going out dancing and getting hammered" variety, but those fell through by virtue of Chloe and I being out of the city for a week prior and no one else having the organizational balls to do anything about it. So I ended up joining her at a friend Caitlyn's house, where, among other things, we danced, made mulled apple cider (Tasty!), played video games and Apples to Apples, watched AtLA, drank copious amounts of tea, ate copious amounts of junk food, made copious amounts of nerdy internet references (over nine thousand!) and generally had a good time. Saw some people there whom I'd gone to school with in grade four. It's interesting to see how people have grown up. 

To ring in the first day of 2011 (!!), David and I went out for breakfast with Oma. SO MUCH FOOD. (And then I went and exercised forever, omg.) Tonight, we made sushi again. So much deliciousness, holy.

Today has been awesomely chill, in that all I've done is ignore my exchange application and dick around on the internet, hooray! Yuletide is eating my lifeeeeeeee! 33 pages of Discworld and Good Omens fic! I'm a little bit in heaven right now. ♥

While in the midst of my Sherlock/Discworld/GO fic-reading spree, I realized that something's changed for me in fandom. When I was new(er) to LJ/the internet, fandom was for me a mainly individual pursuit. Sure, I had my (fledgling, tiny) flist and there were communities I checked regularly ([livejournal.com profile] remusxsirius , anyone? Holy hell, I used to have muscle memory for typing that address.) and authors I adored, but when it came down to it, fandom was basically me reading fic, and that was it. It wasn't anything I would call "lonely", because fandom, I don't think, could ever be lonely, that's the whole darn point of it, but I will perhaps call it "narrow". Aside from the occasional capslock-tastic comments on fics, I didn't really interact a lot with any other fans. (This is not to say that I do so to an extreme now, but I digress.) But then time passed and there were new fandoms to explore. Macros took over everything. The TDK party posts were probably where I learned that fandom didn't have to be solely individual. So many people! So many comments! SO! MUCH! CAPSLOOOOCCCCCCCKKK! Then Star Trek '09: the fic was amazing, the artists were top-notch, but I was still constantly distracted by thoughts of HOLY GOD LOOK AT THOSE PARTY POSTS GOOOOO~ ALSO THE KINK MEMES. Yuss. Fans interacting with other fans! An anonymous epistolary free-for-all! APH eating may brain for a looooooooooooooong time. :D Bit by bit, I learned that fandom didn't have to be all about the fic. Yes, fic is my drug of choice, but hey! The people are awesome too!

This was really driven home for me by [livejournal.com profile] ontd_skating . Suddenly, the Kink Meme almost took a backseat to the other members of the comm. Seeing so many people talking to each other and suddenly being aware that - hey! - I could join in too! It was novel. Before, fandom had always been comforting because I knew that there were a bunch of people out there in the world with whom I shared interests and opinions - the fic they wrote proved it. But with my dawning awareness of things like the APH/Inception/Star Trek/[your fandom here] Kink Meme and places like [livejournal.com profile] ontd_startrek  and [livejournal.com profile] ontd_skating  (SO MANY LULZ), I realized that yes, fandom is made up of people with similar and sometimes obscure interests - but fic didn't have to be my only connection to them. I realized that I could actually interact with those awesome people and take an active role in my personal fandom experience. Whoa.

This realization only solidified with the Epic Adventure that was Skate Chanada 2010 (and guys, I could never make a "Fuck 2010 List", because despite all the other stuff that happened, SC made my year unbelievably awesome). HOLY SHIT, THE PEOPLE POSTING IN THE COMM ACTUALLY EXIST IRL!!  AND THEY'RE ALL AWESOME!! That was the sum total of what was blowing my mind throughout that weekend. The discovery was so obvious, but just ~*~SO WHELMING~*~ I don't evan. SC was also a major bit of fannish involvement, I think. I have never spent that much money on anything fandom related before, but ;LAKSDJFALKJTA;TLKAJ; soooo worth every penny. :D (I don't even want to say that it was a once-in-a-lifetime event because I'm just MISSING MAY BROS so hardcore rn (wish I could have been there for NYE akdjfasld NEXT TIME) that I will definitely be on board for any reuniting that may happen in the future).

So fandom has evolved into a much bigger social conduit. It took me a while (as it always does) to catch up to the herd, but now that I have dusted off my Twitter account for SC, and since fellow-LJers seem to crop up where I least expect them IRL (hello, [livejournal.com profile] lovebanshee , [livejournal.com profile] thatdayismine  and [livejournal.com profile] ironychan !), fandom is more about connection than ever. It's this giant ridicu-mazing thing that makes me run out of adjectives and that I don't think I could ever properly define, but I'm really glad and honoured to be a part of. Fandom, being in it, and what I've learned and the people I've met through it, has helped shape who I am now. A little cheesy? Yeah. But not without truth. Taking a leaf from P. Chiddy (hay, don't look at me like that, I've been PChiddy-holmed) in DJBijoux's flawless, stunning, gorgeous, perfect, etc. remix:

HEY, FANDOM: YOU'RE REALLY, REALLY PRETTY, REALLY NICE. REALLY PRETTY, REALLY NICE. I HOPE I CAN ALWAYS KNOW YOU FOREVER!! 8D (<- PChan eyes!)

HOMG HOMG HOMG HOMG HOMGGGGGGGG JUST GOT BACK FROM SEEING HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS PART 1!!!!!!!!!!!

there are no actual spoilers here/it's already past time for spoiler cuts anyway, but it is ALL IN CAPS, so cut to spare your eyes )

THIS MOVIE HAS WON ALL THE THINGS, I HAVE EYES FOR NO OTHER.

AND THROUGH THE ENTIRE THING, PEOPLE IN THE THEATER ONLY TOLD ME TO SHUT UP TWICE, SO W/E W/E HATERS GONNA ROTATE.
BEST WEEKEND OF MY LIFE.

Mey Two Favourites:


- Adam. Adam, Adam, Adam, Y SO GORGEOUS BB? OMG, I was enamored with his SP from the get-go (mostly because I am a dancewhore and his choreo was beautiful), and just IAS;DIFLASDTN; IDEK EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM IS JUST PERFECT, OK? HE WAS SO SWEET WHEN WE WENT TO CREEP/AMBUSH HIM, AND ;ASDKLFA;SDJKT ♥ ♥ ♥ (No, seriously, he is so graceful and stunning and fierce and flawless, etc. I just. His exhibition skate was one of the most moving things I've ever seen.)

- I can't really believe I'm saying this, but PATRICK CHAN GET IN ME NOW. I didn't stan him overly much before, but then he was so sweet when we talked to him (even though he'd just messed up his short program) and he smiled so much, and ;alsdkjfa;sd;A;SLDKFJAWNPTN BE STILL MY HEART. He was ridiculously over-scored in the SP, but I am so glad he won TBH. Totes mey favourite.

SO YES, THIS WEEKEND WAS BASICALLY MADE OF EVERYTHING AWESOME, EVER. WE MET SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE AND IT WAS ALL JUST SO AWESOME. I'M SO GLAD IT HAPPENED.

I AM SO HEPPI O I AM SO HEPPI~

ASSBUTT?!

Jul. 2nd, 2010 11:59 pm
OH MY GOD, SUPERNATURAL, OH MY FUCKING GOD.

[Actual post TBA]


Err.... another voice post to plague you (because I am somehow infinitely amused by talking at my computer screen). THIS ONE IS ABOUT THE AWESOMENESS OF JOHN FLANAGAN'S SERIES Ranger's Apprentice AND HOW THE EIGHTH BOOK WAS OUT IN CANADA AND I HAD NO IDEA BUT OH MY GOD IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND, LIKE, I'M ONLY DONE THE FIRST CHAPTER BUT IT IS BLOWING MY MIND BECAUSE MY FAVOURITE CHARACTER HAS APPEARED, OH GILAN, AND I LOVE HIM TO BITS AND PIECES EVEN IF HE DOES GET SHAFTED ALL THE TIME. AND THERE IS GOING TO BE AWESOME BANTER AND EPIC BATTLES AND MAYBE EVEN A LOVE INTEREST, AND THESE BOOKS TOTALLY EMBODY EVERYTHING I LOVE ABOUT THE 9 - 12 SECTION OF BOOKSTORES AHHHH!!!!! ♥ ♥

I got cut off at the end, but it was only me signing off anyway, so. (It's mostly just me flailing and sounding hysterical, tbh.)
HOLY FUCKING SHITBALLS, YOU GUYS, I AM SO, SO WHELMED ATM. LIKE. I WANT TO DO A VOICE POST - BECAUSE WHAT'S THAT, I CAN?!?!?!? - EXCEPT MY BROTHER'S IN THE ROOM SO I WON'T BUT I COULD IF I WANTED TO, BECAUSE [livejournal.com profile] cherishedsaulie  JUST GAVE ME TWO MONTHS OF PAID ACCOUNT TIME.

SON, I AM EXCITE! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

THANK YOU [livejournal.com profile] cherishedsaulie !!! ♥ ♥ ♥ YOU JUST KIND OF MADE MY LIFE.

Off to go scrounge up MOAR ICONS! :D



So, um, yeah. Expect a voice post sometime, I guess (AUDIBLE CAPSLOCK Y/Y/MFY?).

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